*Ding Dong*

Alright, once again...

I abandoned my dearest blog...

Since my ah sian kor keep asking me about my blog.

So, I decide to update it. =]

These few months, I have gone through so many things.

I faced so many obstacles, challenges, problems etc..

Life ain't as smooth as I think.

That's what I realize after so many things keep happening on me.

The past just let it pass.

What I want to express in this post, is about my recent problems.

Well, I think is the conflict inside me.

I just can't think out of the box.

It just too hurt.

I try to understand her.

But, I can't.

I can't make it.

How foolish am I?!

What to do? I'm just want everything back to before.

You know what?

I almost cried that day.

No one know about that. Just my sailou knew it.

I told him everything.

And the night I told him, I cried.

I can't stand it anymore.

Why?!

Am I really that difficult to mix with?

I don't think so.

But why this kind of things keep happening on me?

Why?

I can't figure it out.

From Form 1 till now, Form5.

5 years secondary school life!

I face same kind of problems twice!

And it's the problem that I never ever think it will happen on me TWICE.

The first-time-problem, I cried.

Then when I recalled back, I thought it was the most foolish thing I had never done.

She doesn't deserve for me to cry for.

The second time.

I cried again.

Enough crying. It's really enough.

Crying can't solve problem.

I know about that.

But that's the only way for me to relieve my tension.

I like to hide in my room, think about it then cry.

After crying, I really feel better a lot!

Perhaps, like sailou say so, I will try not to think about it anymore.

Just get used to this condition.

I believe such harsh situation won't let me down.

I will get through it.

With all my guts and might.

I will.....