I'll give up

I knew it
Just now.

I'm crying for almost half an hour, I think.
It's quite hurt actually.
What you hope, what you expect can't be the reality.
I wait for almost 4 years already.
But, I'm not dare to tell.
Today, Ah Herng give me a talk.
What he says really encourage me to say out.

And yes.
I do so.
I made a first step.
Finding topic.
And yes.
I had done it successfully.

I thought everything will be fine.
And I planned to say already.
But, he told me by himself.
Ya. Listening from him is kinda hurt.

I used other more indirect way.
And result shows that I really cannot do what I gonna do just now.

If really like that, fine.
I should think earlier.
I shouldn't be so stupid.
Don't worry.
I decide to give up.

And know what.
I regret.
NO more second chance for me.

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Thanks Ah Herng and Ah Mi for accompanying me.
Comfort me.
I feel better right now.
Crying is the best way for me.

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Off then.
Mood-less.